It's not a cry you can hear at night, it's not somebody who's seen the light...

This kitten actually wakes me up every three hours like clockwork. I went to sleep at midnight, and he woke me up at 3. I fell asleep again and he woke me up at six and I tried to fall asleep again for an hour to no avail. I carried my cat in here to cuddle and he chased her away and is now claiming my chest. Dear Helios. I WANT TO CUDDLE MY ARIADNE! And sleep some time this century. But GOD you are cute.

My sleep schedule has been so messed up and I am so tired all I can do while I am awake is lie there and watch DVDs. I haven't actually written anything in almost a week and a half other than the odd tag. It makes me feel antsy, but much less antsy than I probably would have been without the meds. They are chilling me out big time.

Also, I made salsa yesterday and it tastes like a Mexican restaurant. Sogoodomg. And Ewan is now falling off my wall. I shall go punish him ;D

That little kitten bastard just clawed me under my toenail. And I would yell at him but oh goddddd he is so cute!

( LOOK, KITTIES )

Didn't make three meals today, but I made two! And cake. A HUGE PIECE OF CAKE. Awww yeah! Gosh cake is an amazing invention. Caaaaaake. Cake.

Alison is coming home tomorrow. I am making chili because it has been again demanded. So I will leave the house to get rolls and wine in the afternoon tomorrow. Because I believe all are needed. And then this weekend I get to try out a new cupcake recipe. It is here. I am excite!

Also I finally put in for my refund from my student loans. Because it finally got approved and finally got here. So I should get my money in the next few days. It's nearly June. But you know. WHATEVER. :| At least it's nearly here. I shouldn't complain any more, but what a freaking ordeal. This means I can spend the money I just got from working on DVDs on the interwebs. MWUAHA!

My sleep schedule is so stupidly messed up. But I have cute kitties! And I am watching Danny Bhoy and reading about Celtic mythology. <3

MMmm Scream 3 and tacos! I woke up early this morning to take Woot to the airport and so apparently this afternoon I decided I needed a four hour nap. I didn't even mean to fall asleep! Darnit!

Ariadne never goes after your food. It was so nice having a kitten who didn't crawl into your lap when you were eating. Helios is a different story, the little scrapper... But he's too cute to mind.

( See?! )

So Ariadne got out a few weeks ago and since it was a warm day we just let her hang out and we left the doors open. Then she started scratching a lot. Cue me panicking about fleas everywhere and infestations and never ever being clean again ever. So I took her to the vet today and the vet looked at her, said she had a very mild case of fleas and that I should calm down. I like it when professional people tell me to calm down. It's useful!

So I got treatments for her and Helios the kitten (just in case!) and I got told to just vacuum and it would be fine.

I should know better than to look things up on the internet :|

That being said, today is the first day I haven't had a panic attack. And I feel relatively calm and happy. More so, now that I know my house isn't flea-infested. This might be because I am getting over my cold and when the panic doesn't come out of nowhere, it tends to be set off by cold symptoms, or it could be meds starting to work.

The counsellor I saw helped me decide for sure to drop my placement and do it again next year when things aren't (hopefully) so up in the air. But she was otherwise unhelpful and she kind of seemed confused as to what I wanted her to do. (COUNSEL ME!) So I might look for someone else, which is a bummer, since the Uni ones are free.

If this calm mood continues, maybe I'll actually get some WRITING done. I've been too on edge to concentrate on anything for longer than five minutes until today.

Yesterday?

( This happened )

Today?

( This happened )

My cat just had poo stuck to her bum. This is not the first time this has happened to her, because she is one classy lady. But apparently to fix it this time, she felt she needed to DRAG ASS ALL OVER MY CARPET!

Ariadne, I love your squishable face and your adorable everything, but DO NOT DRAG YOUR ASS ON MY CARPET! I just scrubbed an epic, wonky poo trail six feet long, AFTER removing the offending poonugget from her fur while she gave me an evil glare for interfering with her bathing process. Yeah, sorry I didn't want you ingesting it in order to get it off yourself.

It's been a hell of a day. So now instead of calling her 'kitten' or 'chicken' (she hardly ever gets called Ariadne) I am going to call her Skidmark.

She earned it.

...my goodness this entry is disgusting. The joys of pet ownership. It's a glamorous thing, you guys.

I'll post about placement later. Too tired for life and I feel beyond ill.

Large aftershock just knocked out the power. It was only out for like...five minutes, but that was five minutes of me panicking that it was starting all over again. And it seemed to last a lot longer. I checked the water and that was fine (thank Christ, I really didn't do well without the water), and then my fan came back on and I felt this ridiculous sense of relief.

I don't like this. This doomsday feeling that my life is on pause. Though I read that the area where my placement is might be opening back up, since it's in the inner city cordon now, but they're decreasing the cordon tomorrow. And I think they mentioned the area where my placement is. That's good because it means I might be able to go back to placement. But it's bad because it means I might be able to go back to placement and I don't know if I'm ready. On my first day all Hell broke loose. Kind of literally. Though I will probably feel this way until it happens, so maybe the sooner the better. I have to tell you, this is making my 'spend a few years in the UK after graduating and then come back to NZ' plan look all kinds of nice, even though I don't want to leave my people :(

When I do go back, I will be terrified the entire time, and it is no longer because I feel I will do a bad job. I am so beyond that now. It's because I don't want the world to fall in on me.

In other news though, I'm about to go have a sandwich. And that's a tick in the 'Good Things' column! And my head is feeling a little clearer. Maybe I can write something today that isn't historical fiction. This would please me greatly.

Also, my cat is an agent of chaos. Just so you know.

A view of Christchurch from the hills the minute after the quake. I was in the middle of this and so were so many others.

That dust cloud is from collapsing buildings and it is just...so- Indescribable.

On the side of lovely things though, I called my workmates from ACU in Melbourne because they left panicked messages on my Facebook yesterday. It was so nice to talk to them. They put me on speaker phone and they all yelled "HI WE LOVE YOU HOW ARE YOU WE MISS YOU" and various word-clouds of loveliness. Then Lisa spoke to me for a good half an hour before they all got back on to say goodbye. They are so lovely, and I miss them!

Tonight I made a sort of spaghetti sauce out of tinned tomatoes and herbs and spices. It was a little weird, but good! And we ate more of Alison's Amanda-food. And we got water from a tattooed man at a primary school. But he wasn't creepy, he was lovely!

EDIT: A post on Leah's journal of our own photos here In the photo of our rainwater collection, my kitty is staring out the window at Alison taking the photo. She is ADORABLE. /biased.

Alison was supposed to go to bed but she just came out here to get a drink and there is no way that we could possibly ever explain the conversation that just occurred between us, but it was epic hilarity though it was the kind where you had to be there and now my stomach hurts from laughing. It was pure ridiculousness and we both laughed so hard, and I feel like I might vomit.

And then I thought, "you know what? I think I feel like this at least once a day." I think living in a house where you laugh so hard you think you might vomit at least once a day is pretty damn awesome, no matter what else is going on in my messed up little world.

Long live the LFoD and all it's denizens, past and present!

EDIT: For more examples of why the LFoD is the greatest place on Earth, I present Alison's Overheard in the LFoD tag in her journal which is chock full of hilarity and quotes.

My head hurts from laughing.