It's not a cry you can hear at night, it's not somebody who's seen the light...

Been reading old entries from 2003, and in the midst of being annoyed at how completely dippidydoodah I was, I found this lovely entry which is talking about wanting to move to Vienna.

I had a job offer in Vienna in 2003 and I turned it down to go to Australia. I don't regret that at all, but reading that entry made me smile. I was still living in the US at the time when I wrote it, but I've been back to visit Vienna since. It's still my favourite city in the whole world. And reading that entry...that is still the way I feel about it. So many things about me have changed. I have changed. But my silly, dreamy feelings about my favourite place in the world are exactly the same. Which is really nice, actually!

(Also the LFoD watched Ed Wood. I love Ed Wood. And Johnny Depp. And Plan Nine from Outer Space. It made me happy!)

EDIT: HAHAHHAHAHA oh god. 21 year old, fangirl me. How many exclamation points do I NEED?!

I was feeling down today (LONG story) so I decided to do something constructive to take the feeling away (social work training, oy) so I wanted to make a post of all the photos of people and places and things that mean something to me. And when I started to plan it, I realised just how long it would be if I put everyone into it. And that made me feel so amazing, you have no idea...

I did it anyway deciding I would only use photos I have taken myself (or by my family since I wasn't at the reunion to take those and I didn't take the ones of me as a kid, but you get the point!) to cut down on spamming random Hugh Jackman pictures ;). Not everyone that should be here is including my friends in Australia. Woot, Peter, Laura and Ness, I have no (not blurry) photos of you!! And there are other friends who aren't on here, but be that as it may, here it is. Some of my happy things.

( To me you are perfect )

I just looked at my friend Daniel's photos of London and I totally sobbed into my Pepsi Max (I'm sure that's the non-drinker's version of sobbing into a light beer ;)) and I WANT TO GO BACK, DANGIT! NOW!

I'm sure I'll sob over Clare's Vienna photos too ;) SO JEALOUS, ALL OF YOU! I live in one of the awesomest places on the planet (thanks very much) but the damn grass is always greener, isn't it? Specifically since YOU ALL CAN WATER YOURS ;)

:P~~~~~~~~

PS, I just sneezed so loud I think the neighbors are wondering who died. I'm really quite impressive.

PPS AND if anyone wanted to know what the title is about... HERE. DYLAN'S GENIUS! About alcohol, which I do not drink!



That little DANCE he does *squeals* "Have MY bed!" No...really...

I want to move to Vienna. I want to be an Austrian...I'll even wear those little suspenders (yes I know they're called Lederhosen) and the feathered hat (Tirolerhut) and I'll live in a cabin in the Alps for half the year, and for the other half, I'll live in a downtown apartment in Vienna, and I'll watch the city from my balcony.

I'll go to Stephansplatz at night and watch the street performers and I'll throw Euros at them. I'll drink Eiskaffe everyday, and eat Spaghettieis every night for dessert. I'll eat Schnitzel and Kartoffelnsalat (can't remember plural for potato...lol) and I'll ride the Reisenrad once a year! I'll go to the Staatsoper and I'll buy stehplatzen for cheap and I'll stand there and watch operas unfold before my very eyes. I'll speak nothing but German, except when helping lost American Tourists. I'll go to see the Lippenzaners (Don't know how to spell that either) And I'll visit Kaiserin Elisabeth's grave and leave her flowers.

I'll go to the Australian pub and eat Kangaroo and get drunk, and then stumble back to the UBahn singing German Volkslieder at the top of my lungs. I'll buy flowers from the vendors and give them to random people as they pass, just to make them smile. I'll ride the gigantic Rolltreppe just to laugh at how tall it is. I'll go to the Cafeteria with the non-stop Elevator, and jump on and off, tempting fate each time...hoping I don't jump too late.

I'll eat soft boiled eggs, and Apfelkuchen and visit my host family, the Matjekas. We'll go to movies at the Auhof and we'll walk back, by way of the stream, and laugh out loud when we get lost, or stuck in the mud again. I'll buy a dog, and take it for walks in the Fusgangerzone JUST so it can relieve itself and OTHER people can step in it for once. ANd Jayann will come and stay with me and we can be prostitutes at first (They have health benefits in Vienna...good thing the Emporer loved his booty so much...) and then we'll break our way into being an opera star for her (country singer on the side) and a stage actress for me! I'll perform at the Burgtheatre and the Volkstheatre and she'll star at the Staatsoper and then we'll disappear to the mountain cabin for rest and relaxation, til we get so bored, that we go back.

We'll visit her MilkLady and we'll go to Konditerei a lot. We'll shop at those giant Store-in-a-vending maching things JUST because we can! We'll go to the Prater and dance and sing, and go on roller coasters and eat crappy carnival food! We'll be in the Karneval parade! We'll hand out free beer! Or be dressed as witches and hags and scare little children (or unknowing American exchange students *cough*) and then we'll go home and celebrate for ourselves! Austrian Wine and Brie on crackers and steamed clams and grilled shrimp in butter and steak ('cause with Jayann, it isn't a party without steak ;)) And then we'll go to sleep in our downtown apartment, with skylights that show the stars. Cats curled up on opposite pillows. Katerina and Miranda. And we'll have a little balcony, with a garden where we'll grow violets that secretly mourn lost loved ones.

We'll throw house parties, and we'll go to Schoen Brunn every weekend to stroll amongst the gardens and visit the animals in the zoo! And we'll climb to the Gloriette and sing songs for everyone! Or maybe just sit, and enjoy the hubbub of everyone else. We'll dance around the reflecting pool. We'll go to the Kunsthistorisches Museem and look at all the art. And We'll go to SchnitzelWelt! And we'll shop at H&M! And we'll make trips to Mariahilferstrasse regularly to browse the shops there and go to the Aquarium.

And I'll look into the sky and smile.