Less earthquakes. It would be nice to stop worrying about losing everything. (Though really, I could go on and on about every country.)
Less earthquakes. It would be nice to stop worrying about losing everything. (Though really, I could go on and on about every country.)
Less earthquakes. It would be nice to stop worrying about losing everything. (Though really, I could go on and on about every country.)
( Comedian Dylan Moran worries about earthquake victims but not popularity polls and his impending 40th, writes Stephanie Holmes. )
( Comedian Dylan Moran worries about earthquake victims but not popularity polls and his impending 40th, writes Stephanie Holmes. )
It might just be that I am still sick and overly tired, but I don't want to go back at all. And it's not that I don't love what I am studying, because I do (except for policy omfg). I still want to be a social worker and I still want my degree, but I am starting to think this year might be a wash. I can't concentrate on anything, and I already put off my first placement. Now apparently I should have heard about my second placement by now but I haven't so I had to email them to remind them I got permission to do the second placement without the first, given by the program coordinator who said he wasn't worried about me because dammit, I'm awesome. I don't know what do to. It's all...*sigh* I need my student loan, which is the only reason I stayed enrolled at all. If I can't concentrate enough to study, and yet I can't really drop out, what the ever livin' fuck can I do, eh?
Part of me wants to quit and go study the rest of my degree in Ireland or something. But I love the people here. Hrrnnnggghhhh. And I did love the city, but it's gone now.
Fuck it all. Fuck this earthquake. Fuck fuckity fuck fuck motherfucking fuck fuck fuck. Can it be December now so I can go see my mommy?
It might just be that I am still sick and overly tired, but I don't want to go back at all. And it's not that I don't love what I am studying, because I do (except for policy omfg). I still want to be a social worker and I still want my degree, but I am starting to think this year might be a wash. I can't concentrate on anything, and I already put off my first placement. Now apparently I should have heard about my second placement by now but I haven't so I had to email them to remind them I got permission to do the second placement without the first, given by the program coordinator who said he wasn't worried about me because dammit, I'm awesome. I don't know what do to. It's all...*sigh* I need my student loan, which is the only reason I stayed enrolled at all. If I can't concentrate enough to study, and yet I can't really drop out, what the ever livin' fuck can I do, eh?
Part of me wants to quit and go study the rest of my degree in Ireland or something. But I love the people here. Hrrnnnggghhhh. And I did love the city, but it's gone now.
Fuck it all. Fuck this earthquake. Fuck fuckity fuck fuck motherfucking fuck fuck fuck. Can it be December now so I can go see my mommy?
It's heartbreaking.
It's heartbreaking.
I got tea in the mail though. Tea and also a mink blanket (it is not actually mink, it just feels like it) and more tea. So, you know. That's nice. But the blanket is black as my soul. Aaaand now I have that song in my head.
Rearranged my room last night. I set up my new bookcases and the kettle (muhahhahhaa room-kettle!) and now I just have to put the new blanket on my bed. When I have motivation to do more than just sit here and feel shitty about everything in the world ever.
The ground can stay still now, please? I have spent nearly a year writing 'stop it, Christchurch' LJ entries. They have to be as tiring to read as they are to write.
I got tea in the mail though. Tea and also a mink blanket (it is not actually mink, it just feels like it) and more tea. So, you know. That's nice. But the blanket is black as my soul. Aaaand now I have that song in my head.
Rearranged my room last night. I set up my new bookcases and the kettle (muhahhahhaa room-kettle!) and now I just have to put the new blanket on my bed. When I have motivation to do more than just sit here and feel shitty about everything in the world ever.
The ground can stay still now, please? I have spent nearly a year writing 'stop it, Christchurch' LJ entries. They have to be as tiring to read as they are to write.
I just slept for 11 hours. That was nice. Though I am still exhausted.
People developed hypothermia last night because it was so cold. Some people didn't have power to run their heaters or to keep warm. I just... I think hiding from the world for a little while sounds like a good idea.
I just slept for 11 hours. That was nice. Though I am still exhausted.
People developed hypothermia last night because it was so cold. Some people didn't have power to run their heaters or to keep warm. I just... I think hiding from the world for a little while sounds like a good idea.
City council staff at the Art Gallery's civil defence headquarters said the 2.20pm aftershock was "very very significant" and a number of buildings had collapsed in the red zone.
Emergency teams confirmed the leaning Hotel Grand Chancellor had tipped further over.
The Art Centre's historic clock tower has lost its clockface. It has shattered and fallen to the ground.
And there's yet more photos. Like this one.
Enough of this.
EDIT: Key said to demonstrate the significance of today's quakes, the magnitude six quake this afternoon registered an eight on the Mercalli scale which measures the intensity of earth quakes. By comparison the February 22 earthquake was a nine.
Not surprised. That one today did feel as horrible as that one in February.
EDIT 2: "This size of events is likely to produce its own aftershock sequence, therefore rejuvenating aftershock activity at least in the short term."
OH GOOD. Again not surprised. But *sigh*
City council staff at the Art Gallery's civil defence headquarters said the 2.20pm aftershock was "very very significant" and a number of buildings had collapsed in the red zone.
Emergency teams confirmed the leaning Hotel Grand Chancellor had tipped further over.
The Art Centre's historic clock tower has lost its clockface. It has shattered and fallen to the ground.
And there's yet more photos. Like this one.
Enough of this.
EDIT: Key said to demonstrate the significance of today's quakes, the magnitude six quake this afternoon registered an eight on the Mercalli scale which measures the intensity of earth quakes. By comparison the February 22 earthquake was a nine.
Not surprised. That one today did feel as horrible as that one in February.
EDIT 2: "This size of events is likely to produce its own aftershock sequence, therefore rejuvenating aftershock activity at least in the short term."
OH GOOD. Again not surprised. But *sigh*
But I live in Christchurch. And I see things like this every time I leave the house. And have now for coming up on a year. And I have such sympathy for what those poor people are dealing with and what they will deal with in the future. But I'm not shocked by the photos. I rode past dozens if not hundreds of buildings like those just on my way to placement every day.
I kind of miss being shocked. But I've been numbed to it.
EDIT: JUST AS I POST IT the biggest aftershock we have had since February happens. At least it felt the biggest and shit fell down and my bridge puzzle broke! (It goes back together easily enough)
And it did this.

So. What I meant was photos of crumbling buildings don't shock me. The damn earth? It still does. Fuck you, Earthquake. Fuck you.
But I live in Christchurch. And I see things like this every time I leave the house. And have now for coming up on a year. And I have such sympathy for what those poor people are dealing with and what they will deal with in the future. But I'm not shocked by the photos. I rode past dozens if not hundreds of buildings like those just on my way to placement every day.
I kind of miss being shocked. But I've been numbed to it.
EDIT: JUST AS I POST IT the biggest aftershock we have had since February happens. At least it felt the biggest and shit fell down and my bridge puzzle broke! (It goes back together easily enough)
And it did this.

So. What I meant was photos of crumbling buildings don't shock me. The damn earth? It still does. Fuck you, Earthquake. Fuck you.
http://eqstreetcam.co.nz/1001100170
If you click on play, it'll take you through all the streets. It's horrible.
http://eqstreetcam.co.nz/1001100170
If you click on play, it'll take you through all the streets. It's horrible.
Ljapp is awesome. I am writing an entry on the bus! There is a carnival set up on my bus route and I don't know why anyone would want to be on the top of a Ferris wheel right now! I am afraid of heights anyway, but imagine an aftershock up there! They have one of those round swing things too. Yikes.
Oh my stars and garters. This group of boys on the bus just farted on each other in front of me. And I can smell it. See without Ljapp you would have missed out on that tidbit ...Oh god they did it again!
Anyway! Had my meeting with my course coordinator. He said I had kept them informed so now their job is to work things out for me. I think I am going to stay in my classes and just repeat the placement first semester next year. At this point I will stay in my second placement in July.
I appreciate so much that they're being wonderful and understanding. It's calming me down at least in regards to that. And my course coordinator has a very calming presence anyway!
Now to go home where there are no farty boys, and try to have a better day than yesterday.
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- ah education,
- anxiety isn't awesome,
- autumn sunshine,
- being grown up,
- being organised,
- carry on my wayward son,
- honesty,
- i am not made of metal,
- i'm infected by your genetics,
- let's all dance to joy division,
- my brain chemistry is like a picasso,
- my life isn't easy but it's mine,
- patrick phone,
- plate tectonics to the left,
- real life stuff,
- social work is social,
- studying,
- via ljapp,
- ♥ me
Ljapp is awesome. I am writing an entry on the bus! There is a carnival set up on my bus route and I don't know why anyone would want to be on the top of a Ferris wheel right now! I am afraid of heights anyway, but imagine an aftershock up there! They have one of those round swing things too. Yikes.
Oh my stars and garters. This group of boys on the bus just farted on each other in front of me. And I can smell it. See without Ljapp you would have missed out on that tidbit ...Oh god they did it again!
Anyway! Had my meeting with my course coordinator. He said I had kept them informed so now their job is to work things out for me. I think I am going to stay in my classes and just repeat the placement first semester next year. At this point I will stay in my second placement in July.
I appreciate so much that they're being wonderful and understanding. It's calming me down at least in regards to that. And my course coordinator has a very calming presence anyway!
Now to go home where there are no farty boys, and try to have a better day than yesterday.
Posted via LiveJournal app for Android.
- ah education,
- anxiety isn't awesome,
- autumn sunshine,
- being grown up,
- being organised,
- carry on my wayward son,
- honesty,
- i am not made of metal,
- i'm infected by your genetics,
- let's all dance to joy division,
- my brain chemistry is like a picasso,
- my life isn't easy but it's mine,
- patrick phone,
- plate tectonics to the left,
- real life stuff,
- social work is social,
- studying,
- via ljapp,
- ♥ me