I never thought that I had anxiety disorders, until one day I realized full blown that I do!
I have asthma, and it turns out that around 80% of my asthma attacks? Have been anxiety attacks. When I was a little girl I used to be so terrified of not being able to breathe, that the moment I thought about it- I couldn't breathe. I went my entire childhood essentially causing my own attacks. I honestly can't believe I didn't realize it sooner, so many times my worst asthma attacks came from such random things- like if I realized I'd left my inhaler at home, or maybe I went to a friends house and forgot my favorite pillow. Getting separated from my parents, or losing something, getting in an argument with a friend.. all of those things caused major attacks and I never ONCE made the connection.
Then I went through a phase a couple years ago where I kept having non-asthma related panic attacks. I couldn't even tell you what was triggering them, but suddenly I would be freaking the fuck out, can't breathe, I felt crowded and smothered and I could be doing something as simple as cooking dinner! As a matter of fact, it got to where being in my small kitchen started my freakouts every dang time so I started avoiding the kitchen, which meant no cooking.. and yeah. That's when I finally decided to get some help.
Now I go on prozac about twice a year. I don't need it all the time but my anxiety seems to cycle and now that I recognize it, I know when to go in and get back on the meds.
Anyway. This wasn't really supposed to be about me, it was supposed to be me saying - I can relate to what you go through, and I'm glad you got to that point of enough is enough. You won't regret it!
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Date: 2011-04-27 06:01 am (UTC)I have asthma, and it turns out that around 80% of my asthma attacks? Have been anxiety attacks. When I was a little girl I used to be so terrified of not being able to breathe, that the moment I thought about it- I couldn't breathe. I went my entire childhood essentially causing my own attacks. I honestly can't believe I didn't realize it sooner, so many times my worst asthma attacks came from such random things- like if I realized I'd left my inhaler at home, or maybe I went to a friends house and forgot my favorite pillow. Getting separated from my parents, or losing something, getting in an argument with a friend.. all of those things caused major attacks and I never ONCE made the connection.
Then I went through a phase a couple years ago where I kept having non-asthma related panic attacks. I couldn't even tell you what was triggering them, but suddenly I would be freaking the fuck out, can't breathe, I felt crowded and smothered and I could be doing something as simple as cooking dinner! As a matter of fact, it got to where being in my small kitchen started my freakouts every dang time so I started avoiding the kitchen, which meant no cooking.. and yeah. That's when I finally decided to get some help.
Now I go on prozac about twice a year. I don't need it all the time but my anxiety seems to cycle and now that I recognize it, I know when to go in and get back on the meds.
Anyway. This wasn't really supposed to be about me, it was supposed to be me saying - I can relate to what you go through, and I'm glad you got to that point of enough is enough. You won't regret it!
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